Standing still

It's been more than 6 months since my dad died and yet I still feel this way....empty...

This emptiness is like a shadow I cannot shake and yet people who barely know me would think I am perfectly fine. I am a flurry of activity. Smiling, laughing, going on with life...escaping from my random thoughts.

This is the first time in months that I could write here without tears blurring my vision...so I guess I'm as ready as I could ever be...to reach inward and share what I think with the world at large.

Well this is lousy writing I know....but forgive me, I haven't stood still in a long while.