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Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Excuses

It had to happen sooner or later...me singing in my blog I mean...seeing as how I almost always associate everything in my life with a song. Here it goes.

Excuses
Alanis Morisette (So-Called Chaos)

Why no one will help me
I am too dumb, I am too smart
They'll not understand me
I am lonely, they'll hate me

And there is not enough time
It's too hard to help me
And god wants me to work
No resting no lazy

Refrain 1:
These excuses, how they served me so well
They've kept me safe
They've kept me stuck
They've kept me locked in my own cell

I'm too far from home
It takes far too much energy
And I cannot afford to
No one will ever see me

(Repeat Refrain 1)
Refrain 2:
These excuses how they're so familiar
They've kept me blocked
They've kept me small
They've kept me safe in my own shell

Bringing this into the light
Shakes their foundation
And it clears my side

Now my imagination
Is the only thing that limits
The bar that is raised to the heights

No one can have it all see
I have to they want me to
And I can't let them down
I'll never be happy

Repeat Refrain 1
Repeat Refrain 2

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Mall Nation

"Have you been to the Mall of Asia?" I get asked this question a lot in the past two weeks. When I answer in the negative, I get prodded to "go...and soon. It's really great!" I nod politely and say nothing in particular.

But I have yet to go and don't plan to anytime soon. I can't seem to find the enthusiasm for it.

Frankly I don't see why we need another behemoth mall, when I already have more than 8 malls within the 10 mile radius of where I live. Do we even have that much money to spend? Are we not a third-world nation?

Maybe we're all out to prove how unpoor we are by flocking to the malls and buying like crazy? Or maybe we just want to get out of our small and sweltering houses to get into the wide and (not open but...) airconditioned spaces? Or maybe because we are poor that we choose to go to the mall (where entrance is free, right?) instead of going to the beach (which entrance is most assuredly 99% not free). Or maybe we don't have enough parks, museums, famous landmarks? Or maybe we've seen them all before. Maybe, maybe, maybe...

One thing's for sure. We are a Mall Nation. We're obsessed with them. We keep on building them. We keep on going to them. If you have not in the past or plan not to in the near future to go to the nearest mall, then you're one of the weirdos.

One time I was abroad, I met a foreign colleague (from Amsterdam) who asked me "You're from the Philippines, right? 1000++ islands, wow! You must go to the beach every weekend." I told him no, it takes at least four hours to go to the nearest one so I go maybe twice a year. He was so disappointed by that answer that I refrained from adding that I'm 20 minutes away from the mall so I go there more often.

Another time, I was asking a group of officemates where should I bring a friend who was visiting from India and they all suggested different malls. I kept rejecting their suggestions even though they gave reasons why each mall's theme is different from the other. Instead I planned to take her to a tour around Corregidor Island, which involved riding a ferry. Alas, a typhoon came and we ended up spending the day at...yup you guessed it...the Megamall.

So now that I've come to ponder on all these, I will endeavor to go to other places on weekends instead of the mall. There's Corregidor to begin with. Maybe next weekend I will...

Well 'coz this weekend, I've already promised my mom I'll go watch a movie with her at the mall.